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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Innovative Hair Removal Methods
Today i discovered that the (very oversized) OP sticker has another purpose other than declaring your name to whoever's within a 50-metre radius. Surprisingly, when applied to the arm, it functions marvelously similar to a waxing strip, effectively removing any excess arm hair! Of course, it did hurt a little, having my hairs pulled out from the follicles and all, but no pain no gain right? Maybe in future i should try it on my even more overly abundant leg hair. Hmm.
Had one more dry run with Mr Chong today. Didn't go too well for my part, my comments were the longest =/ Ok I know I haven't been exactly practising my script and stuff, compared to everyone else, the amount of effort I put in was probably negligible. Somehow, damn cranky today. I'm so sorry to those who might have been caught in my bad mood. Sorry to Sarah, Panyu, Felicia, Jaron and Hong Zhi for causing a little disturbance during your rehearsal earlier. Sorry Panyu for some screwed up response and mood at the canteen just now =/ So sorry to everyone else whom I caused trouble for today also.
This is it, the final act. I pray that everything goes smoothly. I hope that I can force myself to go into a lighter mood so that my presentation won't be so screwed up like now. Probably presented slightly better before this. Let's hope things go ok.
Happy Birthday Grace! All the best for the A's! (:
No more breath inside, essence left my heart tonight
Disappointment. That's a perfect word to describe whatever's going on. Hate to start a blog post on such a subdued note, but I think that's just been the kind of mood plaguing me for the past few days. Anyway, pt on Thursday morning. Was raining so we couldn't run and stuff, ended up doing upper arm exercises. Damn funny Yong Le forgot to pass down the second relay then some people didn't know about training haha. Ended of training with some basketball. Damn fun haha. Went for pw meeting. Spent almost the whole day doing pw, stoning and stuff. Went to Island Cremery with some SH25 people. Went back to school for YLTC briefing. Group seems not bad. We're called Honey haha. The camp seems quite interesting, 2 days in Sarimbum and 3 days in some place in Malaysia. Oh well, half looking forward, half not, dunno why lol. As Darrell said, it's just another ATC again, yeah maybe lol. I feel like a cadet again haha. Met Jonny for dinner at J8. Talked for damn long. From the food court to coffee bean haha. Only left at like 11? Then I was crazy enough to accompany Jonny to Serangoon and took 70 home. Slept on the bus and got woken up by the driver lol. Came back at 12 lol. Friday, woke up late zzz. Went to school, pw meeting again. Lunch at Coro. Met Hongliang!! Long time no see man! Hope to meet you again at the Charlie gathering!
Met A4 people for dinner at Fish & Co. Went to Icekimo after that. Met Qiu'en who was working there. She actually recognised me haha. When I first saw her I was like wait, is that really her? Small world man haha. Yesterday wasn't much. Woke up later than usual, like 1pm, tired luh. Evening met Terence, Ken, Yong Jie, Yibin and Jun Wei for dinner and LAN. Damn fun. Then Yibin went to hang my phone, couldn't access my inbox for a while lol. Luckily it's ok now haha.
I failed in my duty, not sure why things are turning out like that, but I hope things will turn out for the better soon. Then, for another thing, once again I find myself in a similar situation. This time, luck's just not on our side, not on mine, the situation sucks, and now I'm being seen as nothing, once again. Wts seriously. Giving up is damn tempting, cause no point fighting another losing battle and giving yourself unnecessary burdens to think about right? I just don't know.
Was talking with my Dad in the car on the way to school one of the mornings. Once again I was asked what kind of University course I wanted to go for. Well, up till now I still haven't thought of what I really wanted to do. Well, secretly my dream course is to do Law, since it seems interesting. One friend in passing mentioned that she wanted to go for law as well. Hence it brought me back to this topic. Then again, when I heard of the criteria to get in I was like wts. 4As with GP A or something like that to even get considered for the interview and stuff. The criteria simply put me off from that little dream. In that case, what should I go for? Still undecided on what to do..
Speaking about dreams, when we were young, it was okay to dream, to have the wildest fantasies to what we wanted to do, what we wanted to achieve in life. Some dreams that we set, we followed them. But that was when we were young. Now, as we become more mature, more understanding about the world, more exposed to everything around us, we slowly see these dreams dwindle and even disappear. For me, all the wild thoughts about having agood job, being successful and stuff, slowly but surely, everything seemed to dissolve and disappear, because sometimes, even if we don't show it, we know in our hearts that it would be almost impossible to achieve some things. Somehow, such a thing has been implanted in my mind over perhaps this year or something. Has my ability to dream been vanquished? To better put it, have I given up on dreaming perhaps? I don't know. Everything I ever wanted to do and wanted to achieve seems like such childish and naive thoughts that I started giving up on them. So the question is, which dreams are those that are childish, and which are those that will help? Points to ponder for self.
Ok, bunch of ranting back there. All in all, hope that stupid subdued sian mood will ebb away soon. Feeling totally sucks. Maybe I'm just too affected by some minor incidents that I end up forgetting all the little things in life that make it meaningful, maybe these little things are the cause too, I don't know. For some reason, I think the weeks before promos might have been one of the better moments I enjoyed. Bah, whatever. Going crazy. Feel like sleeping already -.-
Happy Belated Birthday Rena!!
For those who don't know, Avenged Sevenfold is one of my favourite bands at the moment. The tune of their songs really attracted my attention. Here's featuring one of them. Might describe the mood, I don't know. Nice piano tune still lol.
Song of the day: I Won't See You Tonight Part 1 -- Avenged Sevenfold
Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength I've made the change, I won't see you tonight Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood All the ones around me I cared for and loved Building up inside of me A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free Don't mourn for me, You're not the one to place the blame As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight Sorrow sank deep inside my blood All the ones around me I cared for and most of all I loved But I can't see myself that way Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away Cry alone, I've gone away No more nights, no more pain I've gone alone, took all my strength But I've made the change, I won't see you tonight So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight And while I'm gone everything will be alright No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight No more breath inside Essence left my heart tonight
Hey all, today was the principal's contact thing. Wanted to go to school at the normal time, but couldn't wake up this morning =/ Slept at like 3 plus last night cause I was talking to Hilary aka my sis on msn lol. Reached school then went to CA4, attempted to try Dota on my com, but ended up failing miserably. Can ask Khai and Nigel haha. Principal's contact, talked about results and stuff. Really need to buck up.. Haiz... Still, once again thankful in some senses. Heard about the meeting with the Dean. Seems like some of my friends are being forced to drop their H2 subjects to a H1 level. Can agree with Wei Shian in a sense, it is kind of harsh, like just whack. Sickening to see it ): Not really sure what I can say to help my friends feel better. Feel damn sian. Hope that ultimately, everyone will be able to gain something in the end, hopefully it would be good A Level results at the end of the day.
Chionged my I&R in CA4 before going for lunch with You'en, Joshua Tan, Joshua Ng, Jian Zhong, Jaron and Zhong Xi at Coro. Rushed back for floorball meeting. Finally managed to settle stuff. Took the bus back with Jun Xiang. Anyway, hope you liked the card and the voodoo mini Wei Shian (:
Feel a bit lost on some things. Not sure what to do, not sure if there is anything I should or can do for some things. Complicated man some things. A possible picture was being painted before it got destroyed, ripped and burned by surrounding fire. Then, mixture of disappointment plus anger just now when I heard some stuff. True, it is my job to try to get everyone interested and involved. But at least some of us are making effort to do something right? What are you doing? If you're sian already, what about us? Don't just blatantly commit such irresponsible acts. It does not only affect you mind you. Think, just seriously think. Why have some of us continue to fight? Cause our dreams are what's keeping us going, don't just put it out with your plain acts. Then again, I only heard stuff. Whether it really happens, we'll see tomorrow.
The things that happened, did anything have any impact, did it leave anything left to saviour, left to think about? Or was everything just a noise inside my head?
I miss Cat High's morning prayers for some reason, I miss the soothing effect it gives us, especially before every paper.
Hey everyone. Ok, as Wei Shian has been telling me, I have not been updating this place for like ages again.. My bad =/ Anyway, past 3 weeks or so have had quite a fair bit of stuff happening. Week of end of promos had Games Fest. Quite fun with a bunch of injuries here and there haha. Can't remember much. Normal lessons for about 2 weeks, with Chinese and PW workshops and stuff. Not sure what else happened =/ OCS visit on 21st Oct, definitely more interesting in a way than the visit in Sec 4, which was much more brief. Still haven't posted the pics yet, crap.. Results were out on 28th October. Disappoint for many. Personally, my results were so so. Physics: D, Chem: E (after moderation), Econs: E, Maths: B, GP: D. Won't exactly say I'm satisfied, but I should be grateful that I managed to scrape through everything, promoting with 4H2s at least. Need to work harder next year, have been much too slack this year =/
Wednesday, went back to CHS to help the NCOs a bit, end up forgot to cover a lot of stuff, another screw up on my part =/ Friday was Muster parade, no comments. Congrats to those who got promoted, to those who didn't, work harder bah, jia you people! At night, went to surprise Zikai at his house with Ron, Ron's idea haha. Loved the scam I used to get him out of the house haha :P Saturday morning went for Games Day duty. Did floorball umpiring with Kelvin. Lunch after that with some of the instructors. Terence and I ended up half asleep by like 3 plus haha. Went home, then went to meet the rest for Zikai's birthday barbeque. Kena owned man, all of us got caught in the rain, and I stupidly wore shoes again -.- Anyway, had a lot of fun during the party. Aaron was seriously being VERY entertaining hahaha. Oh, first time I tried cheese tofu also, quite nice lol. While leaving that time, we decided to skip throwing zk into the pool, but he asked for it lah, so we obliged haha. Crazy person lol. Bus trip home, Aaron was acting drunk, never seen him so high before hahaha. Anyway, hope you enjoyed your birthday Zikai (: On Sunday that joker came to my house to play L4D haha. End up only much later did he do his work while I tried to study for chinese lol.
Yesterday was the A Level Chinese paper. 11 years of Chinese education boiled down to those 3 hours lol. Paper seemed ok, hopefully I can reach my aim for a C. Guess I do have similar thoughts to Wei Shian, it'll odd to be without Chinese lessons after this for some time, and if our results are satisfactory, the whole of next year and possibly forever lol. Ah well, at least this barrier is over, on to other stuff. After the paper was basketball with friends. Went out to Plaza Sing after that with Edmund, Rayson, You'en, Joshua Tan, Nigel, Gabriel, Wei Shian and Lionel. Ate at Carl's junior, we treated Wei Shian since the meal was to celebrate his birthday in a way haha. After that, considered watching a movie, but decided against it in the end. Met Wei Jian and Zhe Wen there haha. Apparently Pan saw me also. Played LAN in the end. L4D plus some random ships game lol. On the way back to PS we saw a very interesting scene haha. Took the train with Wei Shian, attempted to go down to Toa Payoh to make payment for our courts but failed cause it was closed -.-
Went to school today, was damn late :/ Did some stuff, played a bit of basketball, then came home. Ran around the estate for like 45 mins or so, then when attempting to do some pull ups somewhere, my thigh ended up cramping up -.- Like that also can wth...
Time for reflections and stuff... 4 months later, finally managed to have a proper conversation for once... Zzz Ah whatever, I don't know what to do already. Shian did kind of pen down how I am/was kind of feeling. Oh well, what to do. See how I guess. Saw stuff also, don't know what to say actually. I'll do what I can.. Some stupid things happened also, initially it was kind of my fault for some stuff, but in the end it seemed like it was some idiot(s) who were instigating things. Heard different versions of stuff here and there also, not sure who to believe, but as both of us agreed, we shall ignore all these idiots already. Only creating trouble wtc -.- Regrettably I had to do some things, despite it being against my style... Curses seriously... Then anyway, I'm a little unsure of what to do for some things too, don't wish for things to repeat itself. Kind of stuck again. Freak. Somehow, I'm starting to feel real sick of some things, think I'm going to condemn some things pretty soon =/ Arghhh... I really really hate gossipy people, extreme ones, the ones who misinterpret stuff AND spread wrong info around, especially so if others get dragged in to who know's what crap they create -.- 2 words to these people: Screw you! Never have I felt so strongly andposting such stuff on my blog before. Shows my frustration lol.
Anyway, Charlton called me just now, sounds like I need to start organising the class gathering real soon haha. Miss a lot of people, especially Jon and gang. Miss Eugene too. Can't wait for him to be back lol.
Shall blog soon again I guess. Really need to keep this place going. Almost 3 years now and I don't even have 365 posts -.- Anyway, shall advertise a little bit. Wei Shian has a blog!!! Go visit it under my links haha.
Happy Belated Birthday to Jeanie, Ron, QC, Ruimin, Wei Rong, Jedidah, Zarifah, Jingying, Joshua Tan, Sean, Kah Hoe, Van Tan, Wen Xuan, Song Ko, Wei Jian, Sui Peng, Lennon, Carmen, Wen Rui, Yan Rui, ZIKAI, Tong Yang, Kian Ann and Andrew!!
Happy Birthday to Jerold, Yiting and Victor!!
Not forgetting, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI SHIIIIIAAAANNNNN!!!! My dearest 11 year friend (:
Okay, Promos just ended today. Shan't talk much about the papers. Damn screwed up. Can only hope for the best I guess.. After Physics went to play basketball with the rest. Damn fun, almost 2 hours straight with mainly sh25 people. After that, bunch of us went to the Wisma Atria outlet for Sake Sushi for the buffet thingy. We started at about 3+pm then we were like damn hungry since we didn't eat lunch and stuff. Got a cake for Rui Qi and we kind of celebrated her birthday haha. Mr Tan joined us also for a while. Spammed loads of Sushi and stuff then it was damn fun talking cock with everyone. Think our table damn funny haha. After sushi we walked around a bit, wanted to watch a movie but in the end didn't, cui already. Took the train home. Oh yah, managed to find my GC. Very thankful for the cleaning uncle who brought it to the office. Thankfully I wrote my name on it too. Really very lucky for this.
Ok, time to get some rest man, super tired especially after today lol. Wonder if there's anything to do tomorrow.. Haiz, these few days have been kinda dreadful, physically, emotionally, mentally. Guess some rest might help a bit, hopefully... Argh, now I'm feeling a little dizzy... Zzzz
Think this song is pretty nice, something that's been in my playlist for some time. Not exactly a new song, but still it's not bad
You and Me -- Lifehouse
What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you There's something about you nowI can't quite figure out Everything she does is beautiful Everything she does is right Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive
This is probably one of the most dreadful periods of my life. Minutes that pass seem to feel like an eternity. Don't feel rested at all even after sleeping. Full of utmost regret and pain now.
I'm just human, and I'll make mistakes, just like this time. I didn't mean it. I beg for your forgiveness
